Tuesday, January 20, 2015

My Intentions for Momma Fussell

As I was reflecting on 2014, and praying about 2015, this little space of mine came to my heart. I started this blog in prayer, asking God what He wanted to do with it, and so that's what I went back to.

As I prayed for direction for this blog this year I've decided upon two big aspects that I always want to focus on here.



One


I want to document mine and Lincoln's lives. 

I only have one life, and so does Lincoln. He will only have one third birthday, one first day of kindergarten, one first bike ride, and I want to remember every second. I know that's impossible, but I want to document as much of his life as I can so that I can remember as much as possible. That's so important to me.

I want to remember nursing school {maybe}, remember my feelings on the day I graduate, remember those nights that Jesus held me close when I was broken.

I want to remember the moments in our lives. I really do.



Two

I want to make much of Jesus.

I want Jesus to be glorified in this space, not myself. I want people to read my words, knowing that I'm flawed and have weak moments just like them, but that God is so much bigger than my imperfections. 

I don't want this to be a place where people come and think, 'I couldn't ever be like her.' I want people to read this and know that we're all sinners but we can all be righteous through Christ. 

I want people to understand that God overcomes all. That He is so much bigger than your circumstance, your weaknessess, your issues. He's God, and He can do anything. I want my blog {and my life} to reflect that.

It's so easy as a blogger to want more followers, and before the new year my mindset had changed to wanting tons of people to read my blog, lots of people to give me praise about how great it was, but that's not where God has called me. He's asked me to write what He lays on my heart, and if His purpose is that only one person reads my words and hears from Him, then I'm good with that. I want Him to write these words and Him to speak through this little space. 

I want to unapologetically pursue Jesus, and write about it on the way.

Most of all, I want Jesus to be glorified, because He has done it all. 



So that's the direction I want this blog to go in 2015. I'm excited what God wants to do in our lives this year and on this tiny piece of the internet. No matter what happens, He is good.

Monday, January 19, 2015

Proud Mommy Moment

Happy Monday, friends. Today we both have the day off from school so we're hanging out in our pajamas because it's rare that we don't have somewhere to be. 

Before I write anything, please understand my heart here. I write this blog for two reasons - to document Lincoln's life and to make much of Jesus. {Post to come about that later.} I don't write on here to try to make anyone {or their children} feel inferior.

Please understand I write these things because I want to look back and see what Lincoln was doing at this time or memories we made. I want to remember the moments I might otherwise forget.

So onto my proud Mommy moment.

The other day I got home from clinicals {post to come on that, too} and Linc man wanted to play with chalk outside.

So as he starts writing I look down and I see this and hear him say something like "I write a circle and then a line}!


He's written a P!!!!!

What?!?! You can write a P?! 

Linc's school has a writing ciriculum they do, but I'm still shocked by all the letters he can write. And so proud of him for them!



 I said, "Look how great that L is!" And he smiled like this. My boy definitely thrives on encouragement.





So altogether, I've seen him write an L, N, K, F, P, and T!

I'm just so proud of how great he's been doing in school! 

Have a wonderful day, friends!

Wednesday, January 14, 2015

You Are For Us


My sweet boy has been having some nightmares lately, and so he's been extra clingy lately. When we headed to church Sunday he told me he didn't want to go to his class, which is very unusual for him. He's never said that before.

He told me he'd rather stay with me so I took him into the service with me. We stayed in the back in case we needed to sneak out and as the music started, they sang one of our favorite songs - "You Make Me Brave" by Bethel Music. {If you haven't heard it, go listen now.}

I was holding Lincoln and dancing with him and I looked over and watched Lincoln sing these words..

"As Your love, in wave after wave
Crashes over me, crashes over me
For You are for us, You are not against us"

Wow.

Tears started streaming down my face as I watched my favorite little miracle from God sing "You are for us."

Y'all. Let me honest here. There have been times over the past four and a half years that I've felt like the world was against us. I can read statistics and the odds and just know, they're not in favor of teenage moms and their kids. 

The odds say we won't make it. They say I'll always live in poverty, I'll never finish school, and my son can't possible turn out okay. 

And some days it's not just statistics. Some days people aren't really for us either. I went through a pregnancy that many people didn't approve of. Some of the people I was closest to the day before I found out I was pregnant, walked out the day they found out. I've been told I glamorize teen pregnancy. And some days, despite how hard I try to parent, provide, and give Lincoln a normal life, there are just people who will never agree with it. But..

What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him up for us all, howshall He not with Him also freely give us all things?
ROmans 8:31-32

As I look back through my pregnancy, Lincoln's birth, and his {almost} four years on earth, I see that my God has been for us. I see that God was for a pregnant teenager and her unborn son. I see that God is for a single mom and her three year old. 

It's a relief and a weight off my shoulders to know that The One who holds all things together {Colossians 1:17} is for me. 

I'm claiming that for Lincoln and I every day of our lives. I'm claiming that The One who loved me and my son enough to create us with His hands is for us today. 

The odds and statistics, and even the world, can be against us but that doesn't matter because God is the authority over all things, and that includes mine and Lincoln's life.

Friends, sometimes it seems like the deck is stacked against us. It seems like no matter what, we can't win. But The Lord is for you. 

Romans 8:37 says, "Yet in all these things we are more than conquerers through Him who loved us." 

You are more than a conquerer through Him. You are victorious in Jesus because He's already won. It's done. If you're a child of God, you have victory because of who your Father is. Because He is victorious, you are, too.

Jesus loves you. He adores you. He is for you.

Sunday, January 11, 2015

Give Thanks in ALL Circumstances


I'm a single mom. I have been Lincoln's entire life. Single parenting is hard. Don't get me wrong, being his mom is the best thing that's ever happened to me. But it's hard going at it alone. There's a reason people don't wake up one day and decide, "I think I want to be a single parent!" It's tough. 

It's so easy for me to get caught up in the trap of looking at women who have husbands and thinking "Dang. They have it so easy." And the truth is, they may have it easier in that department, but worse somewhere else. Or maybe they have marital issues that I don't see on social media. Or whatever the case may be. 

If there's anything I've learned over these last 4 1/2 years, it's this. We all have our "stuff." We all have a situation or circumstance that is tough. Whether that be singleness, infertility, career issues, relationships, finances.. whatever. No one has a perfect life. 

It's easy to get caught up in a trap of comparison or complaining.

But the Bible commands us to do something in 1 Thessalonians 5:16..

Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances, for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.

Aw man. That's God's will? That I find a way to give thanks in every circumstance?

I feel like that's a verse that's easy to read but hard to live out.

But if the Bible commands it, then we need to do it.

So God has really laid this verse on my heart the past four years. God allowed me to read this verse often and through it I began to look at each circumstance in my life as something I could be grateful for. 

For example, I'm thankful to be a single mom because Linc can sleep with me whenever I want. I'm thankful to be a single mom because it's taught {and is continually teaching} me strength that I didn't know I had. I'm thankful to be a single mom because I have extra time with Lincoln that I may not have had if I was married. 

And so there might be days where it's tough, but when it's tough and he wakes up in the middle of the night, I can say "Thank You, God, for allowing me this season for him to come cuddle up to me in bed." 

Friday morning I had to get up at four for clinicals, I was still feeling awful, and I just wanted to sleep. But my mind came to this and I thought, "Thank you God for allowing me the finances, the time, and the means to be able to go to school. I love what I'm doing, and that's a blessing."

I'm not oblivious. I know this verse is hard to live out {And I'm really only talking about one part of it}. It's hard to stand in a place that is full of chaos and pain and find something good. But God calls us to. 

He doesn't say we get to pick and choose what circumstance we give thanks in. He commands us to give thanks through it ALL.

There is something to be thankful for in each and every situation but it takes a change of perspective. Sometimes we focus so hard on the problem, we're completely unaware of the blessings around us. We have to stop elevating our problems, then give them to God, and look for the good. 

God has you where you are for a reason. Whether that be single parenting, going to school, and working {like me!} or a married Momma with a fabulous husband, three kids, and you get to stay home. Or maybe you're married and it seems like you'll never get pregnant. Or maybe you've been divorced and it feels like the whole world is against you. He has placed you where you are for such a time as this {Esther 4:14}. 

Shine for Him where you are and give thanks for it, daily. And if it's really hard, thank Him for it anyway. In nursing school we say fake it till you make it constantly, and it's the same in life. It may be hard to say thank you for this season you didn't particularly choose, but the more you do, the more you'll actually become thankful. He has a reason for it and He's going to do big things through you. Be encouraged that The Lord sees, He knows, and He's got great big plans for you. 

Friday, January 9, 2015

Five on Friday {Probably My Favorite Yet}

Happy Friday, people! It's been a while since I've done Five on Friday, but I have some serious randomness to share today. Let's get right to it, shall we?

{One}


SNOW.

IN FLORIDA!!!!!!!!!!

If you want to get technical, it was just flurries and it didn't "stick," but who cares because I live in a town that hasn't seen any snow in 25 years. No, seriously. Nothing in 25 years. 

So yesterday when they started coming down Linc and I fled to our best friends house to enjoy the thirty minutes that it lasted. 

The whole town posted something on their Facebook's about the snow coming down. Except of course the people who are too cool for school.


Also, he's a true Floridian. Look at that face. {It's freezing. He's miserable.}


{Two}


I told y'all earlier in the week that I was taking Linc man to the doctor. Well I did, and he had a cold, pink eye, and an ear infection. Triply whammy right there.

Later that day I went to the doctor, too. So between the two of us in two days we got four medications, visited the pharmacy three times, and had two doctor appointments. {We could probably single handedly run our own pharmacy if anyone's interested.}

Thankfully my little one is feeling better {me, not so much} and is back at school. He's loving it. Almost three weeks is a long time for him to be away from his friends!


{Three} 


I've really been missing this boy now that we're both back in school, but his morning Facetime's have been making my day. He runs around with the phone like a wild person and this is the best picture I could get.

Yesterday I had orientation for my new hospital and today is my first day having actual clinicals for that hospital. My alarm clock rang at four this morning in the middle of the night {You can't even consider four early morning. It's seriously the middle of the stinking night}.

Anyway. 

I'm thinking this is going to be my favorite hospital yet. We got official badges {THAT UNLOCK DOORS} with our pictures on them {who cares if I look like Casper's mother}, AND we get parking passes. Between the badges and the parking passes, I actually feel legit. 

Also, the rooms are like a dang Hilton. I mean, I'd stay there. We were looking at some statistics for the hospital and apparently 99% of people who have been a patient there would recommend it to someone else. My friend, Jessie, said "Heck. I'd recommend it and I've never even been here." {This was based on the rooms alone.

We'll see how I feel after 3:00 today.


{Four}


This boy.

Sometimes I look at him and think, Heaven help me, he's my mini-me. He's the perfect mix of sass and sweetness and he has said some of the funniest and sweetest things lately. Here are some.

Me: "Lincoln, we don't kick."
L: "You started it."

"I'm sad when you're sick."

L: "Mommy, is it morning?"
Me: "No, you haven't even gone to bed yet."
L: "I'm going to bed.." {two seconds later} "Is it morning yet?"

"I want to be a nurse when I grow up like you and go to the nurse place that you go to."

"Goodnight, goober."

"If you are afraid I am with you. If you are scared I am right here."

"I will miss you very much while I am at school."

See. SO sweet and SO sassy. I couldn't love him any more.



{Five}



The giveaway for McKenzie's print is still going on until tomorrow at midnight so go enter that if you haven't already! 


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Whom have I in heaven but You? 
And there is none upon earth that I desire besides You. 
My flesh and my heart may fail;
But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
{Psalm 73:25-26}

Have a wonderful weekend, friends!

Thursday, January 8, 2015

Meet Lacey!


Good morning friends!

Today I'm over on Lacey's Blog sharing some of my testimony, so go check that out here. God is such a good God.

Today Lacey is taking over my blog so you get to hear a little bit about her! Enjoy!

 Hey Y'all my name is Lacey and I blog over at The Simple Bride Blog, and Carrington was so gracious to participate in a new series called Meet & Greet.



I started this series as a way for women to empower other women and to meet new bloggers.  So just a little about myself .. I am 25 and I got married last year to the love of my life. I started this blog to document the first year as a newlywed now it's kind of snowballed into what it is now. I have a traditional 9 to 5 job as well as I plan weddings in my spare time. I am a coffee hater (sorry gals) living with a coffeeholic, we have one fur baby who is two years old named Ellie Mae and I love her to pieces seriously. Something I cherish most of all is my relationship with Jesus Christ, he's always been a rock in my foundation that I can always count on. I was saved, baptized and declared Jesus as my Lord and savior all before 6th grade. I am forever thankful for my parents raising me up in the church and making sure that my trust was always set in him. Be tuned for my full testimony coming soon ... 

I am in love with all things monogramed, pink & chevron. Currently my favorite shows are Friday Night Lights (the tv show), Army Wives, Scandal, Grey's Anatomy, and probably more than I can think of right now. In my spare time I love to bake up a storm and cook for my hubby, I love to craft and recreate things.  A few of my favorite things is Birchbox if you haven't heard it you can find more about it here. Birchbox is a beauty box that costs 10$ a month for 5 samples of all kinds of higher end beauty samples. I have been using Birchbox for two years now, I have found some really awesome beauty finds through Birchbox. You can check out my latest box here! Here are just a few things about me if you have a second please go check out my blog! Really excited to get to know y'all better!


I'm so thankful that this little series has allowed me to "meet" Lacey. She has the sweetest heart, a passion for Jesus, and I guess we'll let the coffee hater thing go. Make sure you go check out her blog! 

Tuesday, January 6, 2015

Pink Eye + School + a Giveaway

Happy Tuesday, friends.

This morning was supposed to be Lincoln's first day back at school but he's sick and probably has pink eye, so we'll be hanging out at the doctor's this morning. 

I'm sick too, and between the two of us we're coughing every five minutes. So that's not annoying at all.

Tomorrow I start my eight week class that I know is going to be tough so I'd really appreciate your prayers.. For me to be able to learn the material, for me to get enough sleep but also have enough quiet time to study, and for me to ultimately pass. 

I'm excited for this season, but also really nervous. I know this class is going to be hard but I also know that The Lord is faithful to bless our hard work and I'm praying that's just what He does. 

Please also be praying for me and little man to get to feeling better soon. I have to be up at four am every Thursday and Friday for the next eight weeks, so I don't have time to be sick. 

If you missed the new giveaway, you can enter for that below!




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Monday, January 5, 2015

Christmas 2014 + New Giveaway!

Happy Monday, friends!

The bad news is, if you didn't get an email from me this weekend you didn't win the giveaway {Congrats, Sarah Maley Farris!} But the good news is.. Because of all the interest in McKenzie's prints, she's going to give away another print this week! So at the bottom of this post is a new rafflecopter for the new print! It will run {like the last one} from this morning till Saturday at midnight. Good luck! 

{Also, McKenzie has three prints on sale - 'Be still', 'Make Time', and 'You Go Girl' - in case you wanted to check that out.}



Onto our Christmas!

This year was our first year with nine members of the family. This year I have a new sister-in-law and a new niece. I grew up spending Christmas with just my parents and two siblings, so going from five to nine feels huge. Huge, but great.

Christmas Eve we woke up super early, he opened a present and I opened a present. 


The bow was from my present and I put it on my head as a joke. Lincoln said it was "so pretty!"

We opened our funny $5 gifts, hung out at Chik-Fil-A, then stayed home the rest of the night because of all the rain. On Christmas Eve he gets to sleep in my bed and not long after we were laying down, we heard jingle bells! We rushed to the door and saw Santa! {Moms.. this is THE best way to get your child to fall asleep fast. Bribery is sometimes a good thing.} 




There was a lot of uncontrollable laughter before bed and he got to sleep in my bed. 



Then Christmas came! 

Lincoln was up at 6:15 and I made him stay in my room until 6:30 when everyone got there. Matt brought coffee and I've officially decided he's the best brother-in-law ever. I mean, EVER. 

We spent the next two hours opening presents which was nothing short of amazing. 


This year I didn't get nearly as many pictures, and I'm kind of glad. I was much more in the moment. It was a sweet morning.










He often drives without looking where he's going because that's not dangerous at all.









This was my whole day. It was a great day. Despite the few dents we've put in trees/the fence, we haven't broken anything or knocked anything down so I'd call that a win. 

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