Friday, April 19, 2013

Beating the Odds

I am a statistic. You know why? Because 3 in 10 American girls will get pregnant before they turn 20. I'm one of the three. And yes, that's a high number. And yes, I became a statistic because of irresponsibility. But that's not where I'm going with this tonight. Stay with me, friends. The ending is much better than the beginning.

After three in every 10 girls gets pregnant, the statistics just keep coming. And you know what's worse than the first statistic? The statistics that trail that one.

"Parenthood is the leading reason that teen girls drop out of school. More than half of teen mothers never graduate from high school." That's our next statistic. In May of 2011 I walked across the stage with my sweet one month old watching me and got my high school diploma. Statistic number two - defeated.

"About a quarter of teen moms have a second child within 24 months of their first baby." But guess what. It's my son's second birthday today and he's got no siblings. (Don't worry, none are coming for a long time!) Statistic number three - defeated.

"Less than 2 percent of teen moms earn a college degree by age 30." I graduate August 2014 from nursing school with a college degree. You could easily say, "Well you may not finish." And to that I'd say, "Watch me. I've come way too far to give up now." Statistic number four - working on it.  

But I really didn't write all of that to brag on myself. No, I think I'll brag on Jesus a little bit. My life is busy. The whole "I have a lot of money to quit school and do what I want because MTV pays me to hang out with my child all day" life, that's not me. No. I work full time and I do school full time and I'm raising my son while financially supporting him on my own. But God is so good. In just two short years He has taught me to be a mom, while working and going to school. He has taught me to love my son with all I have. He has given me energy to do all things and to glorify Him. And if you really want to know something, I couldn't do this without God. He is my strength and my help. I would have never gotten into nursing school if it wasn't for Him. This isn't about me being so great that I can beat statistics on my own. This is about a God who loves me enough to change my life and defeat statistics. To prove that He is God, He is good, and He is stronger than all things. And my God who did all of this, He wants to do it in your life, too!

He's TWO!

Happy 2nd birthday to the sweetest, most handsome, loving, big hearted, funniest little boy I know! Lincoln Fussell, YOU are an incredible blessing of God and I am so proud of the sweet angel that you are! I could not imagine God blessing me with anyone but you. I'm so thankful that God knew I needed you in my life. You will forever be my little boy and the love of my life. I'm so in awe of how much joy you bring into my life, and the way that you bless my heart each and every single day. No matter what happens in life, or what circumstances get thrown our way, always know that Momma loves you more than life and that I would do absolutely anything for you. You are my joy and my heart, and I am so grateful for the blessing that you are! I love you, handsome boy!

Wednesday, April 3, 2013

Life Lately

Hi friends! Life is about to get crazy busy for Linc Man and I, so I thought I'd give yall an update to share what's going on with us! Between hair appointments, doctor appointments, birthdays, birthday parties, orientations, and work, we've got a lot to get through in the next two months!

Lincoln is doing great. It's 8:22 right now and he keeps walking out of his room coming up with excuses as to why he can't go to bed. First he needed me to kiss his finger, now he wants juice. I've gotta hand it to him, the kid can come up with some pretty interesting reasons for staying awake! He turns two on the 19th of this month and his speech is getting so good! He can repeat anything and is starting to use short sentences. He is so full of joy and I'm so thankful for that! I am really blessed with such a happy, well behaving child. He loves to hang out with his best friend, Curry. His sleeping schedule is absolutely wonderful still, but he rarely takes naps during the day anymore. (Bummer for mom, who likes to take naps with him!) He's been doing better as far as being sick goes. If you've been on my Facebook you probably know he had a period of about three months where he was sick constantly with no real answers to what was going on. Thankfully we're past that now, and he hasn't been sick yet. Overall, he's doing great! Although his mom may not be when April 19th rolls around!

I'm doing great, as well. I'm finishing up my nutrition and microbiology classes right now and having a hard time in microbiology. I have to pass this class for nursing school, so it's incredibly important. I have orientation for nursing school on the 18th and 19th of this month. My last day at my job is May 2nd and I think that's going to hit me on my last week there. I'm excited for this new change, but I'm really going to miss the people I work with. My first day of nursing school is May 13th so I have a complete week off before I start school. I'm going through a whirlwind of emotions at this point. Excited, nervous, bittersweet. I was thinking back today on how I kept repeating Psalm 37:4 (Delight yourself in The Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart) back when I started applying to the program. This has been such a dream of mine for almost four years now. It's crazy to think that it's finally happening. 

God has proved Himself faithful yet again. I'm so excited to see where God takes our little family of two in the next 16 months! Please be praying for us as we start a new adventure! 

Those who know Your name trust in You, for You, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek You. [Psalm 9:10]

Monday, April 1, 2013

To God be the Glory

I'm not supposed to be here. I wasn't supposed to get this far. Statistically speaking, I was the underdog. Statistics have proven that young moms like me, they don't finish high school. They don't start college. Their children live in poverty. They can't financially support themselves. Someone else ends up raising their child. Praise God, I'm the exception. I feel so humbled to have gotten this far. I feel so humbled to be making it in life. I feel so humbled to be starting nursing school in a month. And I feel so humbled to be a beloved princess of God.

You see. I could go on and on about hard times I've gone through and conquered. I could go on and on about nights I wanted to fall apart, but didn't. I could go on about being a single mom who finished high school and started college, while raising a baby and working full time. But what does that really matter? What do all the accolades in the world matter if I don't point you to The One who brought me this far? Because you see, God did this. All the glory for all things good in my life, all the mountains Lincoln and I have faced and conquered, God did that. He walked me through valleys, and celebrated with me on mountaintops. He gave me strength when I literally had none left. He dried every tear, held me through all of life's roughest moments. To God be ALL the glory. He is faithful! He is just and loving and true. He makes every moment worth living. He faces every battle for me. He brings a smile to my face and joy to my heart. And you know what is most awesome?! He loves you that much, too. He doesn't have favorites. Friends, whatever you're going through, whatever you're facing.. God wants to take it and conquer it. I learned a long time ago, God has immeasurable strength and courage. Our circumstances are nothing to Him. Nothing is too big, too hard, too tedious, too insignificant. He is good. And His love never fails. He loves you. He is pursuing you. And I can promise you from experience, pursuing Him is the best thing that will ever happen to you!

Lord, You are my God;
    I will exalt You and praise Your name,
for in perfect faithfulness

  You have done wonderful things,
    things planned long ago. Isaiah 25:1