Thursday, January 31, 2013

Why Do I Fear?

I'm usually an incredibly joyful person. I love life and I'm almost always happy. But I do have my days. My life is not perfect by any means, and I have meltdowns just like the rest of the world. Tonight was a bad night. I was anxious about mine and Lincoln's future and had a meltdown.. a HUGE meltdown. God led me to look at the pictures of me and Linc in the hospital. So I did. And then it hit me.. Why do I have fear about the future? I began to think about all the things that God has brought me through, all the things He delivered me from and began wondering.. Why in the heck am I so anxious? If God can get me through all of that, can't He get me through all of this?? So in my head I began listing all the incredible things that God has gotten me through since I became pregnant with Lincoln. God held me through a heartbreak, and put my shattered heart back together. He held me as I sat on a couch and told my parents that I was going to be having a baby. He taught me to be a mom at 17. He gave me strength to finish high school while I was sleeping about four hours a night, while raising my newborn son. God provided me a job to provide for my son. He got me through starting college, and has gotten me through full time school. He taught me to stand up for myself, as well as to stand up for the precious miracle He entrusted to me. And He gives me courage to be a single mom.

If God did all that how much so will He handle the rest of my days on earth? Why am I anxious when I have seen firsthand how He can work in difficult situations?! He is sovereign! He knows what He's doing! And He's got awesome plans! So tonight, instead of being anxious, I'm going to rest in the unchanging grace of my Jesus! And know that He is good, and everything He does is good!

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

I'm Not Needed

At first glance, you probably assumed this was going to be a very unhappy post. Please don't stop reading, because it's not! Humans have this great want for the feeling of being needed. At work, they need me. They need me to get patients charts ready for the next day, they need me to put patients labs on the front of their charts, and occasionally they even need me to go on Starbucks runs. At home, I love the feeling I get when Lincoln needs me. He can't put on his shoes, so he needs me to do it. He can't open his yogurt, so he needs me to do it. He can't pour his own juice, so he needs me to do it. It is a very nice feeling when someone needs you. But this is the thing, God doesn't need you. And He doesn't need me. No, God is fully capable of doing everything He needs to do on His own. He proved himself capable when He breathed the world into existence (Psalm 33:6).

It feels nice to be needed. But it's an even more overwhelming feeling to be wanted. When I come home from work, Lincoln will hug me and take me by the hand to go play with him. Lincoln does this not because he needs me to play with him, but because he wants me around him. He wants to spend time with me. And here comes the exciting part.. God wants you. And God wants me. We could stop when we look at the way that He made the entire world by Himself. But then let's look at the story of David and Goliath. Yes, God could have killed Goliath. Easily and effortlessly. But God chose David because God loved David and wanted David. God wants you and loves you so much that He sent his only Son to die for you. This took a brutal death; Jesus didn't die in His sleep in some nice, air-conditioned mansion. No. His death was brutal, excruciating, and every bit of it was painful and emotional. It doesn't matter what you've done, what you're doing, or what you will do in the future. God loves you with an unconditional, passionate, pursuing love that can't be trumped and can't be extinguished by anything in this world. No person, no object, no sin can take away God's love for you. This is what makes our relationship with Him so special and set apart from any relationship we will ever have. This love is not forced, but it is a love that is wanted and cherished by God. Deny Him and He'll still love you. But God wants you in His presence. Revel in that fact today. You are favored. You are treasured. You are loved by the God who breathed the world into existence. The Great I Am is enthralled by you, and has loved you with an everlasting, eternal love.

The LORD appeared to us in the past, saying: "I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving-kindness. Jeremiah 31:3

Monday, January 28, 2013

Steal, Kill, Destroy

You belong to your father, the devil, and you want to carry out your father's desire. He was a murderer from the beginning, not holding to the truth, for there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks his native language, for he is a liar and the father of lies. John 8:44

The devil is a liar. Catch this- The devil is the best liar out there. This weekend has been a weekend full of his lies. It seems for everything good in my life, he's given me a lie to try and take it down. It's awful. You know the statement about being kicked when you're down, well it seems the more down I am, the more lies are thrown my way. This is the bad thing, I've been believing them. But I'm so thankful that for every lie he throws my way, God reminds me of so many truths in His Word. But I'm so thankful that even in the midst of satan's lies, my God is strong and He fights for me!

The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. John 10:10

Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might. Ephesians 6:10

And I heard a loud voice in heaven, saying, “Now the salvation and the power and the kingdom of our God and the authority of his Christ have come, for the accuser of our brothers has been thrown down, who accuses them day and night before our God. Revelation 12:10

But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. 1 Corinthians 15:57

By which he has granted to us his precious and very great promises, so that through them you may become partakers of the divine nature, having escaped from the corruption that is in the world because of sinful desire. 2 Peter 1:4

Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. Ephesians 6:11

You are beautiful, treasured, loved..
In the midst of lies and doubts, don't forget the Father loves you, pursues you, and bought you at the highest price there is. God can handle any lies and deception the enemy tries to overcome you with. He is able if you let Him fight for you!

Thursday, January 24, 2013

It's the Little Things

Over the past few years, God has given me a heart to enjoy the little things in life. Things such as..

Hearing a child's laughter. Good books. Unexpected surprises. A bowl of mint chocolate chip ice cream. Warm sunshine. Little compliments. A strangers smile. Big hugs. The wind blowing. Coffee. Finding the right size in a shirt you really love. Happy tears. Finishing a puzzle. Chocolate chip cookies. Goodnight texts. Bible verses that God shows you at the perfect time. Disney princess movies. Waking up rested. Hearing your favorite song on the radio. Laughter. Inside jokes. Christmas lights. Running through the rain. The feeling after you've been incredibly productive. Watching a child's firsts. Fireworks. Hot showers.

These may sound goofy to you, but these things bring a smile to my face. I'm thankful for the little things in life that make my days that much better. God has taught me to be grateful for everything in my life. As He is shaping the way I think and feel, I realize that when I am thankful for all the little things in my life, God also shows me how to be thankful for the things that may not be so great in our eyes, but they are daily drawing me closer to Him. I'm learning that the people who are happiest in life are the people who are truly thankful for what they have.

In everything give thanks; for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus. 1 Thessalonians 5:18

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Sunshine and my Savior

Today I got the amazing opportunity to spend my lunch break at home sitting outside under a whole lot of sunshine and God's glory! Last night I bought two new devotionals and a book called "I am not but I know I am" by Louie Giglio. I'm excited to finish up my homework so I can get started on it! One of my devotionals is by Joseph Prince and it spoke volumes to me today! The devotional was based on 2 Chronicles 20:15 which says this..

He said: “Listen, King Jehoshaphat and all who live in Judah and Jerusalem! This is what the Lord says to you: ‘Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God’s.

What a peaceful statement! Immediately after I read this, my heart was settled. It seems like there is always something to be anxious about in this life, and I'm no exception. Our hearts seem to be troubled and at war daily. But catch this, God promises to fight our battles! How awesome is that! We need to learn to be still in His presence and let Him fight for His children. Instead of fearing a situation and thinking, "What am I going to do?", we should turn that around and say "What is God going to do?"

So today let your heart and mind be calmed by the fact that your God will fight for you.

You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the Lord will give you, Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the Lord will be with you. 2 Chronicles 20:17